They Will Never Know What I Feel

Thinking, obsessing, over the unknown,

Reliving, unforgiving, guilt from these old clothes,

Dressed to kill, the part of myself suppressed by magic pills,

Antipsychotic chemicals, balance the mindset of dead living,

I feel nothing,

Nothing,

Vision segmented in frames, snapshots of a life never lived,

Nothing,

I am dying,

Why do they conspire?

I hear everything,

They will never know what I feel…

Nothing,

Vision segmented in frames, snapshots of a life never lived,

Nothing,

They will never know what I feel…feel.

Racing, chasing, thoughts… thoughts of reason… the reason I demonize,

Everything I see,

Why are you after me?

Fear,

Death,

Love will contrast, but will increase the will,

To escape,

The inevitable end,

Silence is a deafening white noise of racing thoughts, 

My ears spit blood,

I see colors, vibrant flashes of orange and red light,

Vertigo earth,

I feel electromagnetic charges crawling through my skin,

I am numb,

Mind body separation,

I am dying,

I can’t breathe,

I have forgotten who I am,

Who I was,

Who I will be,

I am reminded,

I am nothing.

They will never know what I feel…

Nothing,

Vision segmented in frames, snapshots of a life never lived,

Nothing,

They will never know what I feel…

Nothing,

Vision segmented in frames, snapshots of a life never lived,

Nothing,

They will never know what I feel…feel.