So I’m going to get personal for a minute. A major part of my illness is that I hear voices and hallucinate sounds 24/7. There is no time off from this. These phenomena are very loud and can be distracting most of the time. I do my best to try and tune these things out and get through my day. Such simple tasks as carrying a conversation or reading/writing can be very challenging. With practice, over the years, I’ve learned how to manage these voices and hallucinations while performing these everyday tasks. Most people who know me do not know that I deal with this because on the outside, I’m very much composed and normal. But on the inside, there is an unexplainable horror that I hear 24/7 and it is completely unforgiving and relentless. I would not wish this on anyone.

So when I learned how to record sound on my computer, I attempted to translate what I hear in my head onto an audio file. There is a specific female voice that I hear (been hearing it my whole life) and it is extremely haunting. For me, it is somewhat therapeutic to recreate these sounds in my music and audiobooks. In case anyone is curious about my day to day, here is a small one minute excerpt of the types of things I hear. NOTE- listening through headphones will give you the most accurate experience.

Thank you for listening 😊